1/28/10

Last day of Chemo is done YEAH. This last week as been more of a challange as my tongue is very sore and there has been increase in mouth sores, I have trippled my pain meds with some success. This also means more tube feeding and hardly anything by mounth. Less talkimg more grunting and signing. This makes it hard for Kathy to understand me. 4 more Radiation to go and then its healing time. Not that I have not been healing already. Konrad was abe to take care of business at my mom's this last weekend which was great as I was not able to talk to her on the phone. I appreciate all the well wishes I am getting. PLease pray for Kathy as I am hitting my mental wall and this is hard for her. I was unable to stay for the whole services last SAturday but it was not as bad as the Saturday before that, He does take care. May HE be praised in everthing, Jurgen

1/17/10

I realize I am running out of energy more and not updating as often. Last week I found out that instead the planed 30 radiation treatments I am scheduled for 33. So now my last day is 2/3/10. My hair started going south mostly in the back and Duane took me yesterday to get a short haircut to eliminate some of the mess. Otherwise ever day is a new day. I received rides from Pat on Wednesday and Chuck on Friday, each followed with a meal out. I continue to be blessed by all the friends and family. Thursday with chemo I got my H1N1 Flue shot which might have contributed to a challenging Saturday the nausea pills could not quite keep up which was a first. Duane hung out with me and Kathy which was great. I did miss church though just was not up to it. Bob called one evening and we had a long conversation about faith and being afraid etc. What a godly man and God used this to challenge me in my attitude. Friday night I got a book from Dave and Connie while having Dinner at their house, love the chicken and noddles, about not being afraid for about tomorrow because God is already there. I started reading in and it goes with the conversation Bob and I had. He loves and is there even when it does not seem like it as things are feeling badly. Friday was as is becoming a pattern the best day. I stopped at the office and the car got an oil change followed by dinner at Bennetts with the Suba's. Saturday stinks but I was able to sleep pretty well and todau appears to be better than yesterday. May be a walk with Rustler? Its been several days. 13 more radiations and 2 more chemo's coming up. Kathy reminded me to live in the moment today but I rather live in the month from now when this is over. It keeps the stomach more stable. Friday I thought I would not need the nauseau pills at all. Sure glad I had them yesterday have not taken any today. YEAH. Jurgen

12/9/10

Yesterday was the halfway point in the treatments. THANK you all for all the support it continues to be a true blessing from phone calls to cards to food to rides to and from to give Kathy a break. To visits and fellowship. C. Bennett send me reminder to wait upon the lord and to use this time to spend quiet time with HIM. I am not so good at being quiet. Fridays appear to be good days based on the left over steroids from Chemo on Thursdays. I had an early Doctor apointment downtown and a moved up Radiation treatments and we had snow and cold. Chuck took me, it was great to have another set of ears for the doctor. I appear to be doing well physically and the Doctoe indicated that we are looking for a petscan end of March or beginning in April. If that shows no more cancer that I will have 1 or 2 outpatient surgeries to shave some extra material of in my mouth. It is not supposed to hurt as it is still numb and then the new teeth. Total healing could take 18 months. YEAH a goal in sight. WEdnedday night Duane and Katherine came over it was a nice time. Bodo called this week and it was great to hear his voice. again I am overwhelmed by all the support. This is truley a group effort. Thanks again. Love Jurgen

1/2/10

Happy New Year to everybody. Wishing you a blessed healthy New Year. Today was a little bit of a downday. Energy was down and I am experiencing the first sores both in my mouth, lips and nose. The nose is numb so at least I cannot feel them there I am very grateful for that. I finished 2 full weeks out of 6. The remainder of the weeks will be 5 day weeks so no more short weeks. Annie the Lady I have shared about got her graduation papers several days early. Yeah. This week I was blessed again by so many ways. Mike and Chuck took me each to treatments which allowed Kathy some time off. In addition Chuck and Lorie had us over for Dinner on Kathy's Birthday instead of bringing Dinner and we exchanged gifts and they had a homemade from scratch Birthday cake for Kathy. And Thanks to all of you who called and wished her well on her big day. Yesterday was a great day also. It seems that the steroids I get with Chemo provide a boost that last the next day. I vacuumed the home, cleaned cars walked the dog went to the store and we went to a Ruff New Years get together, Thanks Lois Ann. Please remember her as her treatments will start on Thursdays. My dads youngest sister called to share her wishes and I got communicaton from 2 cousins from Germany all praying for me. Tonight we went to church and I was reminded on all the relationships He has been restoring recently in our lives and the way His Church is helping us out. Today the phone calls to bring cheer, The people to bring food and the visitors that make a not so great day managable. Tonights message was on the persisitence of Christ how he pursues, loves and comforts and most of all wants a personal relationship with each one of us. Not the be religious but to have a relationship with each one of us. His promises are not just for when we are dead but for now and here. What a perfect reminder. Again I am very grateful for all your prayers and support. I know I am repeating but Thanks seems so inadequate but its all I can say. Jurgen