2/17/10

Well its been quite a ride. My energy is starting to come back very slowley. In addition I have infections in what used to be my sinus and left ear and eye making seeing and hearing more difficult. Kathy and I have been enjoying watching the Olympics. I just completed going off all the pain mediation hopefully that will help with the mental fog and energy level. I am able to talk again which was not possible for a while and starting eating soups and very soft foods. This recovery is similiar to the period after the surgery but seems to take longer. Also my mental health is being challenged as my expectations and real life don't always match. Kathy has been such a trooper with all of this it is amazing. Christs church is also amazing with food and visits and recently short trips out so Kathy gets a break and I get to see other things again. we have had quite the cold and snow spell. I have been able to last couple of days to keep up with the snow and even went for a 30 min. walk by my self with the gog. That was it so for energy. I am trying to do something every day.

2/6/10

I want to Thank everybody for their on-going support. I have had a hard time speaking due to the mouth sores which means very short phone conversations or mostly none. In addition I am so glad I made the choice of a feeding tube as thats mostly would I can do. Wednesday was the last radiation day. For awhile I did not thik I would make it. His strenght carried me through and continues to do so. Since all the treatments are cumlative I am waitng to reach the bottom so things can improve. My next Doctor appointment is on Thursday. I am getting better with taking my pain meds based on Kathy's reminders, resulting in more sleep and mental fogginess. Today things did not get any worse so tomorrow we can make baby steps in healing. Kathy thinks my face is less red. I miss being able to go to church may be next week. I was way to groggy today. I know its been a long-time since my last update. I still apprecaite all the messages even if I have not returned the calls. Time to review all the cards I saved and the blog. Amazing how quick my attitude can change knowing He is concistent. PLease also remember to lift up Kathy and she bears the brunt of my care taking. In addition to Terhart, Duane and Chuck who all helped out this week . I know I have said this before this is a group effort. It got cold again and we woke up this am with a good amount of new snow and Nick out neighbor clearing our front steps and driveway. Kathy did the back later on. I am looking forward to a time of healing and rst with out the meds. Jurgen