5/17/10

Well tomorrow is the surgery. He continues to be so faithfull. On Thursday after a day of tests and waiting I received some awesome cards that are definetly keepers. I also received a great email from my Aunt in Germany, one of the other cards was from her sister. The guys and I had a a great dinner last night while Kathy went out with the girls. We keep moving forward. I know I am loved both by HIM and people. With all this it is good to knoe that tomorrow night I will be cancer free and I am planning to stay that way. HE keeps showing HIS love in tangible ways through phone calls cards hugs etc through HIS body. Today Kathy and I are planning to train Rustler on a new collar and spend time together. I almost forgot I got some great assistance to bulk up via an awesome cake. Finished it up yesterday, just in time. Thanks all keep the faith, keep breathing and moving and making sure that HE is on the throne. Jurgen

5/7/10

It has been quite a week. On Monday it was confirmed that I have a new unrelated cancer spot on the back of my right bottom jaw. The treated site is clear. YEAH. No more radiation and chemo will be options at this time the only option is to remove part of that jaw and replace the bone from my leg. My surgery is scheduled for May 18th at 7:15 and should last 8-10 hours with 8-10 days in the hospital. I reportedly will not be allowed to speak for about a week and no food for an month. That means I am eating what caleries I can now to bulk up. Eat your heart out ladies. THe recovery to get me back to my current state is 3 month. This means I will have my 1st summer off since High School. God continues to be faithful via HIs body showing up. I am blessed by friends and HIM. I ask that you also lift up Kathy as I get the benefit of meds that she does not. I have contined to ask that GOd be glorified through this looking for a purpose. I am not sure that I will ever know the purpose while here but I still want HIm to be glorified. I was asked this week what that means and it caused me to think. What does that mean? Any ideas or scripture please let me know. Love to have that conversation. Part of me is disappointed that others have prayed and are now disappointed with God and this. Remember HE is in charge. Jurgen