8/21/10

Its been a week since the last news. Its been busy which is good. Final arrengements have been identified and are being planned. Its weird planning your own funeral but the control freak in me can at least to that. Also the Living will and power of Attorney have been completed. Wednesday we met with Chemo Dr. and he convinced us to try Chemo to slow things down. I will start on a partial regiment next Thursday for 3 weeks prior to flying to Germany with my brother on my return week we will start the full regement which entails 1 day outpatient treat ment weekly and every 3-4 weeks 4 days inpatient treatment. WE will try this for 3 month to see if this works. If my qulity gets to compromised we will stop. Thinking about my bucket list besides the trip to Germany I am mostly wanting to hang out with family and friends to enjoy the time we have. Thanks again for alll the support via emails cards phone calls walks what ever. God promises not to give us more than we can handle sometimes His strenght comes in the last second but it is there. Jurgen

8/14/10

Well its been awhile. I had a Cat Scan yesterday to see if my infection was clearing. The result was not so good. Apparently my cancer has spread throughout my lungs and a cure is no longer a possibly based on the medical opinion. I was given 6-12 month. This was unexpected and quite a shock. Within minuted of calling some friends the Body of Christ was at teh Hospital to comfort. He is amazing. I made the last phone calls to people this am and decided not to return to work 9.1.10 as planned. On wednesday we are meeting with the chemo dr. to see about a regement to slow things down. Kathy and I will then decide what to do. There are some things I want to do and I so not want to be impaired by chemo during this homestretch. I would ask for your support and prayers especially for Kathy as this is hard on her. In addidition please remeber my friend Duane whose father passed away from Cancer 2 days ago. Its been difficult to share because I know many of you will be hurt and grieving. Thanks for everything. JUrgen